I know people think that Personal Trainers must be the most motivated, positive people, (who never eat a single bad thing) but I can assure you that that's not always the case. I decided to give you a little insight into my life as a PT and now first time Mum on my journey to post baby happiness - the real, raw side of it all... not the 'edited' version that we see all the time (it had me fooled too)! Time to realise that the journey is not all glamorous.
Today I convinced myself that I didn't need to go walking because I was tired, but let's face it who isn't? I started to think I'm
a breastfeeding mother, so I've been up during the night, which surely can be enough for me to justify to others and myself as to why I didn't want to go.
My partner being into fitness also knew my goal was to walk daily and I asked him if he thought I should go (secretly hoping he'd say no...) but instead he said yes! At first I was still not convinced, but I looked at the front door where my new runners (he'd bought me) were placed and told myself to get dressed and not to ruin the start to my week.
I needed that from him... my goal isn't just to feel good about myself for me, but for him too. Knowing he is proud of me is another positive part of my journey and so it should be in a relationship (I think anyway)!
I had my son 8 weeks ago through an emergency c-section, which means I've only had 'clearance' from the OBS to start training in the last two weeks. I was so determined to get back on-track and made a plan to walk every morning. I still need to take a moment to be real and remember I haven't done anything for 10months, so I'm not going to get 'skinny' in 2 weeks.
Week 1: consisted of 4x 5km walks at 6am in the morning (when Nate was still asleep and been fed earlier) but go whenever it suits you and your baby. The Friday was raining so we opted for a few laps of the shops instead (retail therapy).
It was tough and my body was sore after not doing anything more then a few light sessions over 10months - I'm not going to lie and tell you I trained every week, cause let's be real. I didn't!
Week 2: I decided to change up by adding in some gym sessions (because I was feeling great - mentally from a week of consistent walking)
Monday and Friday (with my partner) I walked another 5km both days. Tuesday I did weights and Thursday boxing - surprisingly I wasn't feeling as fatigued as I thought I would be.
I wouldn't say any of these are massive workouts compared to what I was doing before becoming a mum but who cares, I'm moving which is more than I was doing before!
I'm still yet to figure out why we are so hard on ourselves? My advice to you is to find someone, anyone... that can tell you to get going. Mine is my partner and parents, yours might be a friend or workmate. If no one comes to mind - I will be the push you need. I will convince you that you deserve to feel good because that's exactly what it's about.
I have just finished a walk that I didn't want to go on and I'm not only proud that I did, but I feel ready to take on my day with a better attitude then when I woke up...
Let's see what tomorrow brings.